I'm Alone

It's the most real thought I think I've ever felt. The idea that I am Alone. Weird. Here's what i mean...

"...when all comes down, we are each on our own before God. Every life is separate and distinct."

"...but until we stand before our God with a shocking awareness of our solitary standing, I'm not sure we have a clue about our 'part'"

"Will we loose our hold on anything and anyone else as prerequisites of our followship and follow Him in the intesity of aloneness?"

-Beth Moore The Beloved Disciple

Yeah. After i let that sink in, i really felt it. I'm alone. Alone with God. I somewhat don't know what that means. I try to understand it. But its deep. And its hard to see that as always a good thing...but I think, it is. Or maybe I KNOW it really is a good thing, it's just hard to feel like it is. Either way, being alone with God ultimately means I'm nowhere near alone. Ever. Maybe I'm alone to the world. The farther I get from the world though, the closer I get to God. ...this is hard to understand....i dont know why im still typing. 

All i know is this...I love My God. More than anyone or anything. HE KNOWS ME.