BYE!

I'm thinking this may be my last post on here. It's been fun. ha. Lisa, you may be the only person that even reads this. I've got a facebook, so i write notes on there. It's been good to post things like journal entries on here though. Some I couldn't have posted on facebook. 

Ms. Campus, it's been fun taking your classes! Sad to see you go...wherever or whenever that is. If you read this, I hope that you had fun teaching us and coming to Alabama. ha. the south is Crazy. I'm moving up north or west. soon hopefully ha. Anyway, i wish u the best of luck!! I pray God takes you on an awesome journey. :) have fun

-DANiElle

Semester ending

What I've learned this semester...in school...in life...etc

1) Friends are there for a reason and sometimes just for that alone. Then they may walk out of your life. 

2)That if you really do put forth effort, you can succeed. 

3) God can suprise you with the little things...even in school.

4) REAL friends are always there. 

5) God knows the future. So just give it up and let Him be your guide. Even when you think you are going nowhere, He can open the doors.

My new favorite movie

Slumdog Millionaire is the most amazing movie.

It has this great story about a boy's life and what he went through to reach his destiny. He knew who he loved and wanted to find her. He was an honest, intelligent, and sincere guy. I'm not even going to talk about the movie because everyone needs to watch it themselves.

Why I like it so much?

because most films aren't like this anymore. It had a great story, good characters, somewhat wholesome of a film, happy ending, and it was a movie about hope.

Hope is good. Dreams are good. When you find that your hopes and dreams can become reality, it just brings happiness. I loved the way i felt when i left the theater. It was a movie that I wish i could have been a part of. Crazy good.

Goodness...

School wears a person out man! I don't have much other on my mind today except for school.

and...i really feel like double dating for some reason right now. casual dating sounds fun. i dont want anything serious but from time to time a girl likes to just go out with a guy!...jus something simple. It's just one of those days. All the "serious" guys want too much right now and im going who knows where in a lil bit so i jus get turned off. not that i've found a great one for me anyway or else it would prob will a lot harder to push away.

back to school. i pray i finish this 15 page paper fast. its due monday. its the one thing consuming most of my mind. 

boring post...i know. ha

oohhhh...here goes another

So i sent another application to a company for an internship. I'm giving it straight up to God. That's my best chance. Who knows? Well...i mean...He does. 

Today was a good day. God is good. Life is crazy right now a little bit for me. Another one of my good friends kinda is going through something. Taking a step back from being someone I can talk to and depend on. But God is good. He always sees me through. And luckily has blessed me with so many other great friends. I just hope and pray He keeps my friend safe and holds on to her more than ever. That's all I ask. 

later.

I'm Alone

It's the most real thought I think I've ever felt. The idea that I am Alone. Weird. Here's what i mean...

"...when all comes down, we are each on our own before God. Every life is separate and distinct."

"...but until we stand before our God with a shocking awareness of our solitary standing, I'm not sure we have a clue about our 'part'"

"Will we loose our hold on anything and anyone else as prerequisites of our followship and follow Him in the intesity of aloneness?"

-Beth Moore The Beloved Disciple

Yeah. After i let that sink in, i really felt it. I'm alone. Alone with God. I somewhat don't know what that means. I try to understand it. But its deep. And its hard to see that as always a good thing...but I think, it is. Or maybe I KNOW it really is a good thing, it's just hard to feel like it is. Either way, being alone with God ultimately means I'm nowhere near alone. Ever. Maybe I'm alone to the world. The farther I get from the world though, the closer I get to God. ...this is hard to understand....i dont know why im still typing. 

All i know is this...I love My God. More than anyone or anything. HE KNOWS ME. 

Starting off better already.

Today, even though I'm completely stressed out with my Mock Interview and how it's gonna go....I still feel better than yesterday. Yesterday just had a bad vibe since the moment I woke up. Today...just feels better. Is it possible that your dreams could set the tone for your day? That may have been it yesterday. I had had a dream the night before that really got to me. Last night's dream wasn't nearly as realistic or problematic as the past night's dream. Maybe that's why I'm already feeling better. Who knows? My hormones are wack right now I think. I have most of the day off except for my mock interview and soccer practice with the lil kids :) so today should be almost relaxing. I need to just give God time to prove some promises to me. I think He has them ready to bless me with, but I'm just not taking into account that He does Everything in His timing. So I'm gonna try to relax today and be the Normal Danielle who is somewhat laid-back and chill. It's been a lil while since I've been that way. SUMMER NEEDS TO GET HERE FAST. 

ha this WAS a good verse of the day. very fitting

"Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, "So shall your offspring be." Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead -- since he was about a hundred years old -- and that Sarah's womb was also dead. Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised."
Romans 4:18-21

Ha HA....it's funny because it really isn't...

So here's an honest post. I think I have a good sense of humor. When people really get to know me, they usually like me. I also think I'm friends with funny people. I watch funny shows. Good humor is easily recognizable. 

Ok...so here's the deal. Take these two phrases:

"She's really stupid." (nobody laughs)

          or

"She's f**** stupid." (everybody laughs).....

what's funny now? I'm confused. So that leaves us with this question....Is our generation just not that funny? So we add cuss words into our sentences every other word...because that's funny???AND it shows our AMAZING ability to come up with adjectives...makes us look Real bright. ha...

So even if people cussed and it WAS something actually funny, i may laugh...but sad thing is..it's usually just not funny. The people who cuss a lot are really missing out if that's the humor in their life.

There's no judgment on anybody here...its just Funny to me that our humor is based on how many cuss words we can throw into our statements. Sounds like people who cuss to be funny need to meet some Actual funny people. 

Inspired

I have a lot on my mind. I usually do...but just these past 3 days...I've had so much on my mind I can't focus on much. I keep having ironic things happen to me and I keep realizing and discovering more things about Myself. Just in these past 3 days. Hard to explain and really no need to. All I know is that i truly believe I am willing to give my life to my dream. 

I don't know why I have the dream in the first place. I know I'm not qualified...least not yet. I feel like David who was called to take on Goliath. I'm honestly really scared. But I know that there's a reason for my dream. And if God would stop putting little signs in my life...I would stop trying to envision it all. But He doesn't stop. I really am afraid that I can't do it...however my God says its possible.

So I've had a great weekend full of great friends and great talks. And then at the same time I've felt lonely. But with God. Does that make sense? I think God seriously makes me feel that way so I stay focused on what He wants for me. So tonight as I got out of my car at southern family market...I said outloud that I would give up everything and pursue my dream more than anything. Meaning I would give up every other thing or experience in my life, if I need to for my dream. Maybe that's why He takes things away? AND Why he gives the things and people He does.

haha. "Voice of Truth" just came on as I type this. 

"Voice of Truth says do not be afraid. This is for my glory."

"... all these other voices calling out to me..."yeah i know those voices...the ones that say its not possible. 

"the kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant with just a sling and a stone."....i mean i just said that! ...kinda weird...makin that comparison and now the song haha God is funny. Ok i think im gonna listen and relax. Time to keep focused on one thing...God and the dream. 

night

Yeah, He Feels

        "Faith is moving without knowing."-  Fireflight :Unbreakable

God is up to something. He always has something new for us to understand about Him. I noticed the other day something kinda interesting. I've changed this past year. I used to talk to Jesus...you know the Savior of the earth? ha...the one who was human While being God. He was my best friend. I talked to him like he was. These days i talk to God more. Yes i know they are one and the same...BUT basically im saying I changed the way I pray. It's as if when I talk to God I'm more myself and blunt because He's in control and I know He calls the shots in my life. I think over these past 5 months with all the changes in my life, I've just switched how I pray. It's like I don't talk to Jesus... who I feel can relate better...I talk to God....who, in some ways i see Him looking at me more from a distance sometimes. It's almost as if I forget that HE is still my best friend as well as my father. So lately, I just go to Him with my "Ok. You did this. Now I'm accepting it and letting you do your thing...even though it hurts." When I should just be honest with myself and go to Him in my pain, because...that's ok. I was reading Beth Moore's book outside the other day...and this one simple line got me. So I highlighted it. ha. The line was this:

"But God still feels. Beloved, God still feels."

It was like I had forgotten. My prayer life had changed to somewhat bitterness with what He was Letting happen in my life. Like, I believed it was all for a good reason one day that these things were happening, but I wasn't exactly happy with it. It was like God in return was only saying "I am doing what's best. Just wait."

When I really wanted to hear Him say, "I know it hurts. This is a hard situation in your life Danielle and I'm with you. Even though it's all gonna be ok, I know it hurts now." I just didn't FEEL like that was what He was saying to me. (this may be sorta confusing...but its just how i felt)

When it hit me that GOD, My father, AND best friend, STILL feels...it made ME feel amazing. How did I ever forget that? Of course He feels. He created US. We're made in His image...He feels too. And He feels for the whole world. Yeah, He feels and cares about me in every way.

So the point is, I can't forget that even though I go through rough times... God is in control...AND cares so much about how I feel. He's everything. So just don't forget... GOD STILL FEELS.

and question to aunt lisa if u read this...do you look at God and Jesus different? I used to seriously only pray to Jesus really....i know that weird but thats jus how i did it...even though JESUS prayed to God. ha...im jus saying...i find it weird that i do it at all....

Crazy Dream

As i sit here lying in my bed on my laptop, my lil yorkie thinks its fun to toss her lil bone onto my laptop keys. I throw it off and then it appears back onto my keys. I throw it off AGAIN. And it appears, oh so softly, back again. It's actually really weird to me that my dog can toss something with her mouth and not move any other part of her body while doing that.

ANYWAY, I took a nap today before work...I was bored...what would You do? please.
Back to my nap...so I had this dream where all the sudden I was going down an escalator...that led me to a ride...kind of a rollercoaster ride but not exactly. Once I got to the bottom, I had no choice but to get on the ride. I was pushed onto it. It was weird. Then once I was on it I saw people who wouldn't help me get off at all. They just stared. And before you know it I was sitting in the cart that was slowly starting to move out the roof and I wasn't buckled in. I freaked out! (in my dream) Then I reached around but couldn't find a seat belt at all. (you know those dreams when you wake up and your heart is racing? ok this was one of those) It was the feeling of "CRAP I'm on this scary ride, barely secured in and it's starting to go!"....Then I woke up.
Seems stupid, I know. Anyway, I overanalyze half the things in my life. All i know is right now I'm pretty scared about my fall internship. And where I want to go for it...LA, NY, or any other big city. AND will I get a good internship like that at all??? Pretty scary. And if i do, its gonna be a BIG Change and something completely New to me. So the dream. I think that's how it's gonna feel. Like I'm taking off and I don't have control or feel safe. I know myself and I get myself into things sometimes and don't have a chance to pull out. So now i've decided to just trust God on this internship thing. Easier said than done. BUT He's like this. He loves for us to just TRUST Him. So we'll see where He takes me and what's gonna happen... soon enough. Dreams are just weird.