Inspired

I have a lot on my mind. I usually do...but just these past 3 days...I've had so much on my mind I can't focus on much. I keep having ironic things happen to me and I keep realizing and discovering more things about Myself. Just in these past 3 days. Hard to explain and really no need to. All I know is that i truly believe I am willing to give my life to my dream. 

I don't know why I have the dream in the first place. I know I'm not qualified...least not yet. I feel like David who was called to take on Goliath. I'm honestly really scared. But I know that there's a reason for my dream. And if God would stop putting little signs in my life...I would stop trying to envision it all. But He doesn't stop. I really am afraid that I can't do it...however my God says its possible.

So I've had a great weekend full of great friends and great talks. And then at the same time I've felt lonely. But with God. Does that make sense? I think God seriously makes me feel that way so I stay focused on what He wants for me. So tonight as I got out of my car at southern family market...I said outloud that I would give up everything and pursue my dream more than anything. Meaning I would give up every other thing or experience in my life, if I need to for my dream. Maybe that's why He takes things away? AND Why he gives the things and people He does.

haha. "Voice of Truth" just came on as I type this. 

"Voice of Truth says do not be afraid. This is for my glory."

"... all these other voices calling out to me..."yeah i know those voices...the ones that say its not possible. 

"the kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant with just a sling and a stone."....i mean i just said that! ...kinda weird...makin that comparison and now the song haha God is funny. Ok i think im gonna listen and relax. Time to keep focused on one thing...God and the dream. 

night